July 20, 2018
It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.” – Rose Kennedy
When I heard this quote (on an episode of Criminal Minds!) I thought Yes… Yes Yes YES! This is it! This couldn’t be truer. The pain is always going to be there; not a lot to affect daily life as it used too, but enough that certain things and places can conjure up memories that lead to light pangs in the heart. Time does not heal all wounds, it just makes it easier for us to forget about it. I’ve realized that this is what is currently happening to me.
I’ve forgotten the tiny details of his face and the thing is, I didn’t even realize that it was happening. Before I would try so hard to keep these things in the back of my head, but I’m just simply starting to forget. I would be lying if I said I don’t think about it still because I do, it’s just not as much or as frequent. It doesn’t feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, but there is a strange sense of inner peace within myself knowing that I’m finally starting to really move on.
I’ve realized that I didn’t need to do anything to do so either. Writing has helped, nights out and working like I’m possessed, but really the biggest thing to do when you have your heart broken is to just go on with your life. The pain will lessen. The clouds will lift and the sun will shine again. Everyday you breath it’s clear that you’re living your life without that other person. It really is a powerful thing to know, at least for me. My world like I know it might have ended, but my life did not…